I don’t know what to say really. So, I got tired and sick from people around me… a bunch of stupid, lazy, fraud, poor bastard and such vulture above the corpse, just waiting for his or her getting silent…

 I’m in hell right now, guys… believe me and all of you who can understand, who can see the pain, which cares about his or her hometown, are same. We can stay here and get the shit kicked out of us or we can fight our way back into the light, heaven and success for our country and us. We can climb out of hell One inch, at time. Now nobody can do it for you. For example, I’m too old and I made every wrong choice a young man could make. I wasted all my money and my time, believe it or not.

 I made people to hate me any where that I have been. I can’t even stand the face I see in the mirror.

 

And lately, you know when you get old in life things get taken from you. That’s, that’s part of life. Even though it seems so bitter but you know it is reality which we can’t run away and we have to accept it …..

 But, you only learn that when you start losing stuff. You find out that life is just a game of inches and time. Because in life or any another fight, ((I supposed life as a battle)) the margin for error is so small.

I mean, one step too late or too early you don’t quite make it. One second too slow or too fast and you don’t quite catch it. The inches we need are everywhere around us. They are in every minute, every second every hours .

On my personal life I just fight for that inch On my personal life I tear myself, and everyone around me to pieces for that inch .

 I CLAW with my finger nails for that inch. Cause i know when i add up all those inches that’s going to make the fucking difference between WINNING and LOSING between LIVING and DYING.

 I’ll tell you this in any fight it is the guy who is willing to die who is going to win that inch. And I know if I am going to have any life anymore it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch because that is what LIVING is. No one can make you do it for you … you have to do it by yourself … and for your future …. I was and am a looser …but always try to keep myself alive. No matter what happens in future … but when they want to bury me in abandoned cemetery, when I close my eyes I will feel free … because I fought … that is good

 Let get together soon

 When I say let’s get together soon it means I m alive